~End of the Road~

I cant help but think that time is flying by too fast.

It feels like only yesterday I began my first day in High School. Its crazy how much has happened since that day.

Met wonderful people who eventually would become some of my best friends.

Met a guy who made me feel like I was 'wantable'.

Got a job that taught me so much, including how to have patients with people, how to communicate, and how to respectfully treat people I meet in the restaurant business.

I cant really explain how much I have learned since my first day at Costa. The whole 'hiring process' was one that is rarely heard of. I mean, who just walks in, asks for an application, and then gets hired without even filling it all the way out? Surely not every one has those experiences. Then came those lessons where "the customer is always right" and "arguing gets you no where" and "the best communication is speaking with respect and truth".

Then came the relationships that went along with those lessons, and I really wouldn't have changed a thing. Five General managers, at least 10 assistant managers, and countless shift-leads and coworkers.

Its like its own mini society, where these people spend 5-10 hours with the same people at least 3 times a week. Its more time I spend at home or at school. These people see the good and the bad, the mess ups and the triumphs, and somehow it moves us to be closer to these people, even if we don't really acknowledge it at first.

The best/worst part of this is that you don't get to choose these people at all. At school you can choose to move away from people who you have a problem with, and you also get to choose your friends that you spend your extra time with, but at work, these people are chosen by a higher-up and you have no say in the matter.

I have met the most interesting people through Costa Vida. I have met a drag queen, a swinger, a neurotic control freak (actually a few of them), a heroin addict, a borderline gay Mexican man who talks too fast for me to understand half of the things that he says, a reserved mumbler, and most of all, an amazing wonderful caring person who doesn't know how great she really is.

These people have helped me shape the person that I am today - even if meeting them was a bad, tear inducing experience.

But I feel blessed nonetheless by what my Heavenly Father has done for me in the past few weeks. I cant help but feel unworthy of all the amazing revelations and blessings that have happened, they are that wonderful. Heaven knows that I really couldn't do all of the things that I have without the immense help from my heavenly angels, Father, and guidance.

For all of those who have been with me from the beginning, I'm re-introducing an old/new concept.

Last Minute Thoughts:

1. Time flies and there really is no way of catching it, except for living in the moment.

2. In the words of President Monson, "Find the joy in the journey".

3. Maroon 5 is my favorite band. Bar none. Quickly followed by Sara Bareilles, Muse, and until very recently Nicki Manaj.

4. Graduation is June 3rd at 7 o'clock. But since I have limited tickets, only parents and grandparents will be attending the ceremony - so count yourself lucky if you don't have to go! I don't even want to sit there for 3 hours!

5. Only three more weeks left... I cant help but want to cry. One of the biggest parts of my life has almost ended.

6. I don't think I will end up going to my high school reunions.

7. My Aunt MaRea is one of the most talented people I know.

8. I ripped a part of my hamstring and it hurts like hell.

9. My favorite things to eat right now is bananas, peanut butter, and V8 juice.

10. I got Seth a job at Costa. I think he will be a sufficient replacement for me.

11. I have so much to do in so little time!

12. I think I am going to 15 with these thoughts...

13. I'm a planner. I have to have a plan. Its rather annoying and I think I'm going to try and give it up while I'm in college.

14. I will be fully accepting care packages from anyone who wants to send me one once I have moved down to Cedar City. Among the list of needs, there are: Tampons, chocolate, peanut butter, and most of all letters! I probably wont be coming home as much as I like seeing as how gas prices have risen dramatically. I would love letters, notes, and encouraging advise.

15. The more time flies by, the more I start to miss my family - even though I haven't moved out yet. Its rather ridiculous.

Love you all!

Comment please!!!:)

Andie

Panties in a Wad

I cant believe how uptight some people are. Granted, I'm not talking about things like alcohol, drugs, or immoral acts. I'm talking about how much people really are strung and how tightly pulled some peoples internal piano wires are. Its kind of a funny story how I got on this topic. Today in English we had a substitute. She. Was. A. Beast. We were supposed to work on our research papers, which half of mine is already done, and she wouldn't let us use our phones, ipods, or have any water bottles or such. I was like, "Really? Isn't there sub code that requires you NOT to CARE about stuff like that?" Seriously. Then she told us to sit spaced out so that we wouldn't 'disturb' each other, meanwhile she would walk around and ask certain students - the ones that didn't make fun of her - questions about our research topics. These weren't one word answer questions either. They were, "What are your thoughts on the action US government is using in Lybia...?" kinda questions. It makes me a bit crazy to tell you the truth. I am an adult. Legally 18 anyways. And this was ridiculous. Best yet, she chose to stand right over me almost the whole time. I'm kinda done with people like that. But, God loves them and so should I. Doesn't mean I do though! HAHAH! Love, Andie:)

~Cathartic~

Cathartic - an emotional purging.

Yeah.

That's kind of what writing is for me.

That and music is what lets me release what is all bottled up inside.

My high school career is at the end of its road. Seriously. We've had 12 years of schooling now and it has gone by like that.

I'm finding it hard to feel sad or emotionally attached to my last 3 years of high school.

To be completely honest - people at Bountiful High are douche-bags.

The guys are cocky and arrogant and not to mention so shallow that fish would drowned in those waters. If your thinking I'm exaggerating, ask anyone that wanders those red brick walls, they will tell you the same thing.

Truly beautiful people have it really hard. I feel bad for them. And please spare me the "Andie, your beautiful." spiel, I know I am. But not like some of the people that go to my school. Its like people are taking prenatal beautiful pills that make their children gorgeous. I'm. Not. Kidding.

But there are some people there that make me rethink how amazing people really are, when they aren't in front of an audience.

Hayden - and no, that is not his real name - for example. I have had a crush on him since 2nd grade and to tell you the truth, he is an amazing guy. Brilliantly smart and hot too. He has the whole package to be honest. Plus, he talks to me and smiles at me in the halls. This might not be a big deal, but since I have aerobics and yoga every day, I have given up trying to be cute at school - so it is a big deal.

Men are visual creatures. And no matter how you put it, they like pretty things. Shiny things. And beautiful things. Its not a surprise and its expected and truthfully, I like pretty things too!

~~~~~~~~~Side story. Today I took Ari, Hannah, Aidan, and Sydney to get slushies after school and while I was backing out of the parking spot, there was an amazingly striking guy walking out. I had to tell myself to look back at the road because I was in danger of crashing into another car! But this just proves my point! Humans love pretty. Thats probably why I love What Not To Wear and Americas Next Top Model, I love to see something transformed from 'Eww' to 'WOW'.

But back to my point. The boys (and thats what they are, boys) at B-Town High are shallow, and crude, and I want out. Now. I want a returned missionary. I want a first date. I want a first kiss. I want to be taken to Prom and wear a pretty dress. And I probably wont get that in the next 12 weeks of high school. But that is ultimately okay! It builds character! Stay clean right? Yeah. Thats my mantra right now!

I am happy right now.

Heavenly Father is showing me that I deserve amazing things, and I just have to work for them, and also believe that I deserve them. Work hard, and let God do the rest. Thats my new mantra.

Happy Reading People!

Love,

Andie;)

Life ---- Speeding By Way To Fast -------->

I have to say. This whole growing up thing is kinda hard.
Its only been a couple days since I have applied for college and I have already decided which one I will be attending next fall.
All of these decisions are coming right at me, full speed ahead. After all, I am a stop-and-smell-the-roses kind of girl. Funny thing is, at the most random times I feel like life is going by WAY to slow. Like in math class, or waiting in line at Ross.
Point is: if you can manage time (because really, no one can control time except God of course), you have found the answer to everything. President Monson really knows what he is talking about when it comes to finding the Joy in the Journey.
But the new year is rapidly approaching. Like two days till we are there people!
But you all know my birthday is tomorrow!! I am stoked.
Why?
1. I'm turning 18.
2. I'm turning 18.
3. I'm turning 18.

Obviously you can see how much this is affecting me:)
But in all reality 18 is just a number.
Although...

I can buy dry ice.
Be tried as an adult in a court of law.
Have legal sex, not that I have any intention of doing that sort of thing.
Vote.
Get a Tattoo - again, not planning.
Buy spray paint.
Buy a weapon from Walmart.
Get a piercing - goes without saying.
Change my name.
Work more hours
Sue someone
Be sued
Purchase liquid white out
Pawn something
Get married
Get divorced
Adopt a child
Be on Jerry Springer
Go on a Cruise
Buy a lottery ticket
Get a hotel room
Call some "900" numbers
Go to a night club
Get a Sam's club membership
Skydive
Sign legal documents
Gamble
Get a blockbuster membership
Get a loan
Buy insurance
Donate blood
Enlist in the military
Get a non-prepaid cell phone
Sign a legal contract
Begin earning credit
Move out of the parental units house
Get paid more
Become a flight attendant
Work in an alcohol serving establishment
Get a business license
Obtain a credit card
Buy a monkey (w/ a license)
Carry a weapon (w/ a license)
Order something off T.V.
See a doctor on my own
Get a different type of driver's license
Rent a port-a-potty
Get the water bill in my name
Lease an apartment
Rent a house
Finance a car
Sign myself out of school
Start my own business
Cash a savings bond
Buy nitrous oxide
Rent a post office box
Drive a company vehicle
Drive an ice cream truck
Buy a house
Breaks at work are no longer required.
Start a 401k plan
Apply for benefits at work


Yeah. That's a hefty list!!!
But more than that, I'm becoming an adult. legally yes, emotionally maybe not. Heck I still love acting like a child and bugging the crap out of people by being a pest.

But that will eventually fade,,, I think.

Ha ha Till next time!

Love,
Andie;)

Just Truckin Along

I really do like him.

I could say that he's my favorite,

And it wouldnt be off the mark.

He makes me smile and laugh

When he smiles and laughs.

I love our banter,

And I can call it 'ours'.

He makes my pulse thump,

My knees bump,

And my breath whoosh!

I really do like him,

But I dont know how he sees me...

I could pretend that I'm the only girl he likes,

But that would be ignorant of me.

These butterflies just wont go away,

And inside they are tearing me apart.

Just ask me! I yell inside my head.

Just love me! I yell again.

I dont think he can hear me.

I really do like him,

And I want him now.

This boy doesnt know what he does to me,

And maybe I need to keep it that way.

This infatuation can only bring two things:

Love

&/or

Pain.

I just cant risk it.

I really do like him.

The way he does his hair,

The way he talks about others,

The way he loves everyone,

The way he listens,

The way he laughs,

The way he smiles,

The way he loves,

The way he lives.

I really do like him.

The End.