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Hey people of the world. I have a new blog purely for my fashion passion!

Its: Andiessecretcloset.blogspot.com

Please Please PLEASE go on and see it! It should be a its full potential by the end of the week... if I have enough time budgetted out for it haha!

Thanks for all your love and comments!

Love,

Andie;)

~!!A Whole New World!!~

Hello Good Bloggers!

How are you?

So good to hear that!:)

Summer has started.... :):):) This is very very VERY Exciting. Another exciting tid-bit? MY TYRANNICAL MANAGER QUIT! I Know. I'm ecstatic too;)

But That news comes with a good and a bad side.

Good Side: HE IS GONE!

Bad Side: We have to get ANOTHER (And this is the 3rd one in 6 months) manager, and get used to their craziness. That transition period will take about 2-6 weeks of just hating life.

See, every manager has their own way of handling things and of working. Callie was laid back and fun for everyone, Suni was also laid back and he mostly let the assist. manager handle things, Paul was hands on EVERYTHING and when something pissed him off, he decided to micro-manage everything else instead of focusing on the bigger problem and dealing with that.

To say the least, Paul was a handful!

And I know this is mean, but... we all kinda rejoiced when he left...:D

Corporate still hasn't found a replacement. And that isn't very surprising because Corporate is the reason Paul left.

Corporate Offices are literally upstairs in the building so we are always under constant ridicule and surveillance by them. It sucks. Big time.

NEXT NEW THING:

TREK! Yep, I'm going and I really am excited for that. I'm really dying for some of my good friends to be in my family, but that might be asking too much.

NEXT:

School is out and this summer is gonna be amazing! I can just feel it!

Tanning, swimming, working, hanging out, and just having fun is all on the agenda:) I'm so stoked its not even funny!

YAY!:)

Last Minute Thoughts:

1. I LOVE the D.I. I just got my Trek skirt there and I actually love it and am wearing it right now:) He he:)

2. Having nothing to do is the greatest feeling in the world (2nd to peeing).

3. Even though having money is very helpful and it makes going places easier, there are ways around that! Such as: hanging out at a friends instead of going to dinner! YAY!

4. Kinda went on a date a couple Saturdays ago. But it didn't really work out, it was fun anyways though!

5. 'I'm not gonna write you a love song, cause you tell me its make or break in this!"

6. Its good being single. It makes life a whole lot easier.

7. I'm learning to love the people around me, and lately that my family. Just today Aidan and I went to lunch at Costa and it was a lot of fun! Not to mention he gets me free stuff just for being cute!:)

8. My mom is amazing. She is a trooper! Hannah and Sydney have not made it a summer to be looked forward to for her, but she is amazing and puts up with it. Sometimes with a smile on her face too!

9. This is a really long Last Minute Thoughts...

10. Went to St. George and that was a ton of fun! Took some great pics and just hung out with the fam. It was so relaxing!

Love you all!

Andie;)

~A Cornicopia Of Feelings~

Mainly feelings of disappointment and hurt. But what is life without some pain right?

So Today! Ah, the wonders of today!

Today my Jewelry friends and I got together for lunch! This was a big deal, because we all had jewelry first semester and we never really got back together to do something fun since then. So, like I said, big deal.

And it didn't hurt that the guy I had a huge crush on was supposed to come.

I had planned this thing for like 2 weeks in advance. It was an ordeal. I texted people, made sure they had rides, got everyone together, etc etc. So when I go to pick people up at the designated spot, Lizz turns around and tells me, Brock said that he wasn't coming. He says he has no money so he is just going home.

I turn livid.

Now, before you get all "Andie, a way to a mans heart is not to become his mother..." I want to tell you how incredibly douchbageriffic this stunt he pulled was:

COMPLETELY DOUCHBAGERIFFIC.

I already know that I shouldn't yell at people, and leave them nasty hurtful voicemail messages, or text them the alphabet one letter at a time... twice... in one day...

But guess what?

Andie don't put up wit no crap! MmmmHMMM!

(Sorry for the black person reference in speaking. I just couldn't help myself.)

But this is only the tip of the ice burg.

I went through the motions of what I did:

Anger (always the strongest most exhausting part),

Depression (my least favorite part),

Guilt and Shame (PA HA AH AH! I usually don't feel guilt and I do stupid things everyday so I am used to that feeling),

Denial (No close caption for this one),

Bargaining (Please! Please! I just want this one time to mean something!!!),

And finally ACCEPTANCE. I thought i was at that point. I guess not... I will be though. Soon.

And I kind of get this false happiness running through me by the time I am done with work at 10 PM. I get home and tell my parents and tell Seth of what an Awesome day I had in retrospect. Then Seth starts ragging on me for acting like Brock's (The guy I kinda went psycho crazy on) mom and dad completely disregarded everything I told him.

I get fed up.

I turn into done.

Stick me with a fork, I'm moist but dry on the inside.

I kinda have a break down. Just a small one compared to what I had gone through other times.

And then God shows me how much he truly cares.

When I am laying on my bed, bawling my eyes out, completely feeling alone and picked at and disregarded as crazy, My dad - my wonderful amazing father - softly knocks on my door and sits there with me. He knows what kind of pain I am going through, and the only thing he said that really had the most impact was "I'm sorry that it sucks. I wish I could say more, but all it does is suck."

The light at the end of the tunnel my friends. That was the light. My father is the light. The one in heaven and the one on Earth. Trust me, I know of my fathers imperfections quite well, but he is one of the strongest most generous amazing men I have ever known.

I love him.

And if I can just get a husband with half of what my own father is, that would blow my mind away. I probably wouldn't deserve him to be honest.

People, love the ones that love you back. If you cant turn the ones who you want to have as friends or something more, leave them be! They don't deserve the kindness you give, if they only look at it and throw it away. I am tired of the crappy people in the world that manipulate my love and appreciation into something that it never was.

But fortunately I have my family and my role models to help me.

Thank you.

Love,

Andie;)

Maybe I Need Some Rehab, Or Maybe Just Need Some Sleep!

What?!? Im not important enough to leave a comment for? Hu? Is that it!?

Well then I'll just shut this blog down!

Yeah I said it!

Prove to me that I shouldnt!

The End Of The Path

There are some paths in life where we are just supposed to get through the brush with as little scrathes as possible. Sometimes we get lucky and find a tool to help us get to our destination easily. And at other times, its all we can do to get up off the ground, brush off the dirt and keep on treking.

But in the end, we find where we are supposed to be. Even if its at the end of the line, there is nothing left to lose, and life doesnt seem to be worth living anymore. That brilliant light of inspiration comes and everything that has beaten you down, doesnt seem so big anymore.

These opprotunities for trials come around and we ask for mercy from God. But the mercy is that you are getting the trial. Somehow we need that trial, somehow its a quality of our person to have that under our belts for future use.

I have recently found out what 'hopeless' means to feel. I am a hopeless romantic, hopeless in quantum physics, hopeless in love (at the moment). But with that, there leaves an open space for hope to actually come and fill my life. Since it was absent, there was nothing to fill the space before hope, so it has a reserved place in me. There is hope, but it hasnt occupide its seat yet.

At the end of the term, there are lose ends to tie, grades to perfect, and tests to take. It opens up a great start for the new beginning of the next term. From what has happened, lessons have been learned and I will be better for the next round.

I will be better.

I need to be better.

I can be better.



Love,
Andie;)