Following the Commandments

I can't believe what a difference paying your tithing and going to institute make in my life. Its like even though bad things happen, they aren't nearly as bad as they could be, or my attitude is just so much better.

Monday I got rear ended, but thats okay! It ended up fixing a problem I was going to have to deal with anyways!

Plus I get a ballin' rental car:):)

Anyways. Work has been so much better and I just got an opportunity to do a Nutrition Tutoring workshop for 6 weeks in the summer. If I get this job, it would be such a blessing.

Just a short post today, I have homework to get to!

Love you all!

Andie;)

She Threw It Out the Window To See a Little Butter-Fly

This campus is beautiful. My campus is absolutely stunning. And I can walk from one end to the other in about 10 minutes.

Suck that Utah University.

Anyways, I am now a new proud MacBook owner!

I found a used MacBook for about 589.00 on Ebay. Great deal. It works great so far!!:)

I do have a problem with some software though. I brought the Word software with me but since its from 2004, my Mac won't install it. LAME.

But that is okay. I will deal!

Edge of Desire from John Mayer is one of my favorite songs at the moment.

He might be a dick in real life, but that boy can sure sing.

This semester is going to be great.

I am trying my hardest to get at least a 3.7 GPA this time. Last semester was kind of sucky, but I won't make the same mistakes that I did last year.

Its funny how time flies. I've now finished a semester of College and have met some great new people along the way.

I have decided that there is no capacity limit on how many people you can love or let into your life. Sure, the bigger the more complicated, but I have to add that there is more joy as well!

I have never had a problem with being real. Anything that I say, I mean. The majority of the time that gets me into trouble, but at least I can say that I never said something I didn't mean.

That being said, I have a problem with people who are fake. When can I trust them? Who are they when they are alone? What on earth do they mean when they say cryptic sentences? See how annoying that could get?!

The only thing I can really say that would fix this problem would be to love them. Love does fix all emotional problems. Its the love of our Brother Jesus Christ that lets us repent and become perfect. So there is hope for everyone - especially me.

Any ways! Its time for Bio 1610 now!

Love you all!

In the Dead of Night

Its crazy what happens after midnight.
All of these things you say you wouldn't do, happen.
All the things that you said you would do, don't happen.
I personally believe that you change when that clock ticks past midnight.
But I'm very partial to that belief. No one else seems to believe me....

I'm furious.
I really am.
I feel betrayed and forsaken by a person that I really didn't think that would ever happen.
But that is what happens when I idolize people.
I do it with all the guys that I currently like and I do it with friends that I really shouldn't.
We are all human and sometimes I forget that. But that the same time, damn people upset me!
Why do we have to make bad decisions? Better question: why do people not believe me when I say an action is a bad decision?


In ancient Greek Mythology, there is a prophetess named Cassandra that can see the future. Her gift is also her curse. No one listens to her when she speaks, even if its telling someone to stop doing what they are doing because they will become dead from that action.
I feel like Cassandra.

I feel like I give this amazing guidance sometimes to just have it forgotten on the wayside. But, then I also have to remember that we were put on this Earth to make mistakes and to learn and to have free agency, and that calms me down a bit. I do not like it when people do not listen to me.

It makes me feel forgotten and abandoned and unheard. Which in my book, unheard is worse than heard and ignored. At least I was heard in the first place.

Ignoring someone is an active action. take it from a person who had to grow up with Seth as a brother. It took me at least till I was 17 to realize that if I ignore him, he will go away. I had to fight myself just to keep from yelling at him sometimes. But in the end, it paid off.

What I am trying to say is: I have been told in my patriarchal blessing that I have the gift of discernment - and sometimes I forget that that gift is for my stewardship only, and that people I love and care about are not necessarily in my stewardship. Its a lesson that I am constantly learning, especially dealing with 19 year old girls most of my time.

Trust me, when people want my help, I will give it to them, but when they want reassurance that they have done nothing wrong when they have, I will not be there.
I do not lie to the people I love about things I feel. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only sane person in the room and then I remember that I am the insane one. Its a double edged sword that one...

This might feel like a jumbled mess on your computer screen, but that is my life. A jumbled mess punctuated with exciting moments and tragic events. But the one feeling that I have had for a good 15 hours now is disappointment and I need to get rid of it.

This is the one time where I have been grateful that I am going to work tonight because I know what the hell I am doing there.

I love you all! Thanks for listening to the ranting, I surely appreciate it.

Andie;)

Upon My Liars Chair

Time goes by so fast.
It seems like I have lived in Cedar my whole life.
But heaven knows that I ache to go home almost every weekend.
I miss my family so darn much.
First semester is almost over and finals week is only a couple weeks away now.
That scares me to the bone.

I know that the song I am about to reference is a bit dark and depressing, but man is it cathartic.
Hurt by Johnny Cash (a cover of Nine Inch Nails), is bone quakingly beautiful. I swear if I wasn't in the university library, I would cry from just watching it on youtube.

I'm a hypocrite. I always put myself so much higher than everyone else in my mind, but when I see others do it, I call them out on it and get up in arms towards them.
It takes a lot of gumption to look yourself in the mirror and see what is painfully obvious. My roommate Emily said something last night about changing yourself. She said that it gives you a sort of elated feeling, like you can do anything. I completely agree with her statement.

I need to change a bunch of things.
I need to lose weight.
I need to get my homework done.
I need to stop procrastinating.
I need to take my life seriously and actually put my all into what I do.
I need to take pride in my work.
I need to be less judgmental.

To look at all those things is a daunting task. I could add almost 20 more things if I wanted to, but I will spare all of that for a later psychological evaluation.

Sorry I am so dark and depressing! Sometimes I just need to get it out and have no one talk back or give me the advise that I already know.

10 Things I am Grateful For:
1. Freedom of speech.
2. The ability to see others as how they are, not who they should be.
3. My cellphone.
4. My family, biological and adopted.
5. Sleep.
6. Music.
7. A roommate that doesn't judge me. Even though I have earned it.
8. Tattoos.
9. Johnny Cash.
10. Orange nail polish.


Love you all!!:)

Love,
Andie;)

Failure = A Way to Find Success

I think I failed my biology test today.
Its okay though, I am only freaking out a little. I'm afraid that I am not freaking out enough though. That is scary.
Sometimes I hate people who learn really easily. But then again, when it is something that I want to learn about I learn it super easy. Example: Nutrition. I love that class. Like legit love that class. Plus I am so damn good at it too. I get the answers right almost always. Its the one class that I work hard at because I love it and want to succeed.
I want to learn how to do that with all of my classes. Not just Nutrition.

10 Things I am Grateful For:
1. Change.
2. My mom.
3. Unpredictable situations.
4. New people.
5. Old friends.
6. Failed tests.
7. Aced tests.
8. Music that makes me dance.
9. Three classes that I have to go to.
10. Tuesdays.

Love you all!