Life ---- Speeding By Way To Fast -------->

I have to say. This whole growing up thing is kinda hard.
Its only been a couple days since I have applied for college and I have already decided which one I will be attending next fall.
All of these decisions are coming right at me, full speed ahead. After all, I am a stop-and-smell-the-roses kind of girl. Funny thing is, at the most random times I feel like life is going by WAY to slow. Like in math class, or waiting in line at Ross.
Point is: if you can manage time (because really, no one can control time except God of course), you have found the answer to everything. President Monson really knows what he is talking about when it comes to finding the Joy in the Journey.
But the new year is rapidly approaching. Like two days till we are there people!
But you all know my birthday is tomorrow!! I am stoked.
Why?
1. I'm turning 18.
2. I'm turning 18.
3. I'm turning 18.

Obviously you can see how much this is affecting me:)
But in all reality 18 is just a number.
Although...

I can buy dry ice.
Be tried as an adult in a court of law.
Have legal sex, not that I have any intention of doing that sort of thing.
Vote.
Get a Tattoo - again, not planning.
Buy spray paint.
Buy a weapon from Walmart.
Get a piercing - goes without saying.
Change my name.
Work more hours
Sue someone
Be sued
Purchase liquid white out
Pawn something
Get married
Get divorced
Adopt a child
Be on Jerry Springer
Go on a Cruise
Buy a lottery ticket
Get a hotel room
Call some "900" numbers
Go to a night club
Get a Sam's club membership
Skydive
Sign legal documents
Gamble
Get a blockbuster membership
Get a loan
Buy insurance
Donate blood
Enlist in the military
Get a non-prepaid cell phone
Sign a legal contract
Begin earning credit
Move out of the parental units house
Get paid more
Become a flight attendant
Work in an alcohol serving establishment
Get a business license
Obtain a credit card
Buy a monkey (w/ a license)
Carry a weapon (w/ a license)
Order something off T.V.
See a doctor on my own
Get a different type of driver's license
Rent a port-a-potty
Get the water bill in my name
Lease an apartment
Rent a house
Finance a car
Sign myself out of school
Start my own business
Cash a savings bond
Buy nitrous oxide
Rent a post office box
Drive a company vehicle
Drive an ice cream truck
Buy a house
Breaks at work are no longer required.
Start a 401k plan
Apply for benefits at work


Yeah. That's a hefty list!!!
But more than that, I'm becoming an adult. legally yes, emotionally maybe not. Heck I still love acting like a child and bugging the crap out of people by being a pest.

But that will eventually fade,,, I think.

Ha ha Till next time!

Love,
Andie;)

Just Truckin Along

I really do like him.

I could say that he's my favorite,

And it wouldnt be off the mark.

He makes me smile and laugh

When he smiles and laughs.

I love our banter,

And I can call it 'ours'.

He makes my pulse thump,

My knees bump,

And my breath whoosh!

I really do like him,

But I dont know how he sees me...

I could pretend that I'm the only girl he likes,

But that would be ignorant of me.

These butterflies just wont go away,

And inside they are tearing me apart.

Just ask me! I yell inside my head.

Just love me! I yell again.

I dont think he can hear me.

I really do like him,

And I want him now.

This boy doesnt know what he does to me,

And maybe I need to keep it that way.

This infatuation can only bring two things:

Love

&/or

Pain.

I just cant risk it.

I really do like him.

The way he does his hair,

The way he talks about others,

The way he loves everyone,

The way he listens,

The way he laughs,

The way he smiles,

The way he loves,

The way he lives.

I really do like him.

The End.

The Straw That Broke the Camels Back

No. I only have a couple things to say today.
First:
No one is leaving comments for my blog(s). Im not happy about that. Come on people! Do I have to threaten/beg again?!
I guess I'll just have to write more interesting stuff from now on... :)

Second:
I GOT A NEW PHONE! Of course if you look on my Facebook page on a regular basis (what I like to call Glorifide Cyber Stalking) you would already know this. Its amazing! I love it! My fantastic and a half dad got it for me - I actually paid but he okay'd the whole thing and the fact that he actually did what he did is just so amazing:) Not that he isnt regularly amazing, but I love him none the less.
Its the Samsung Gravity T from T-Mobile (did that just sound like a plug to you too?). Its the phone that I've been pining for ever since I saw it on an ad that came with the T-Mobile bill last week.
Another cool thing. ARI GOT A PHONE!
He is such a sweet boy he was flipping out in the car when he was told, and then after that I didnt see him all night... Probably texting all his girly friends!:) He actually got my old blackberry since I upgraded. Its just a win-win situation basically.
I love my dad. He is the best. You might be under the misapprehention that your dad is the best, but let me assure you: HES NOT! MINE IS:):):)


Third:
I hate and always will hate sophomores/freshman. See, I view myself in a special catagory that only a couple people get into. When I was a sophomore TWO (Holy crap) years ago, everyone and their dog thought I was either a new Junior or transferring Senior. No one put me as a sophomore unless they acutally knew me.
So my point would be that I have never been treated/seen as a sophomore - let alone a junior. Ever.
No. Really.
People from last year have repeatedly told me that they thought I graduated last year. "NOPE! I'm still in this hole..." I repeatedly tell them.
Back to my original point.
I
Hate
Sophomores.

They should all get beaten senseless then come back with a new... how do I say this... Sense of Position. None of them (or juniors if I just come out right and say it) should EVER treat Seniors the way they are being treated.

I want to kill them all.

If I had more time I would put up the story that brings me to this conclusion, but alas. Free period is soon over, and I actually need to be on time to my English Class today... :(

Love you all!!!
PLEASE COMMENT! (Thats me pleading. Dont make me threaten!) Haha:)

Andie;)

One of Those Days

I have to say that for those people who are consistently optimistic: Good On Ya.
Its only 8:00 in the morning and I already feel that its gonna be the worst day of my life. I wish I was kidding but really; I'm skipping some of school to get some fines paid, I have more than enough homework tonight and last but certainly not least I just had a co-worker text me and ask if I can take her shift tonight because she is sick. Why? Why take her shift? Because I believe in Karma and also that everything will eventually work out. Do I have any time now because I have to go to work? No. But everything will work out... I hope...

Back to positive!
At least I have money for the fines right?
Well kinda... Ha ha!

Oh I know! Here is something positive!
I look cute today:) That's something worth Hooraying for!

Today would probably be better if I could just skip it, but unfortunately I cant. Trust me I would if I could...

Today is just one of those days that I have to trek though and eventually get out the other end with as little scratches and bumps as possible. Thankfully I can depend on my Heavenly Father to give me the strength I need to get where I have to go.

Last Minute Thoughts:
1. I think I have said this one before but boys are worthless until they come home from their mission. Even then they have a 3 month awkward stage of getting back to the Norm of life.
2. I would love it if people were as dependable as they should be. It would be fantastic if no one had to depend on me to take their shift if they had something else to do.... :(
3. Money truly is a burden. So are accessories. And property.
4. Sometimes I live on Diet Coke.
5. I'm dreading going through the Freshman 15 - most likely 50 for me btw... - at college.
6. I hate Sophomores and the majority of Juniors and Seniors.
7. I cant stand when people touch my face.
8. I worry about humanity.
9. I love my US Gov class. Its actually funny because its the most political and I have some whack jobs in my class but I get to voice my opinion and overall it is - and I'm not kidding - the best one out there.
10. I have a thing with immediate gratification. It needs to be now...


Love you all!

Andie;)

HEY LOOK!

Hey people of the world. I have a new blog purely for my fashion passion!

Its: Andiessecretcloset.blogspot.com

Please Please PLEASE go on and see it! It should be a its full potential by the end of the week... if I have enough time budgetted out for it haha!

Thanks for all your love and comments!

Love,

Andie;)

~!!A Whole New World!!~

Hello Good Bloggers!

How are you?

So good to hear that!:)

Summer has started.... :):):) This is very very VERY Exciting. Another exciting tid-bit? MY TYRANNICAL MANAGER QUIT! I Know. I'm ecstatic too;)

But That news comes with a good and a bad side.

Good Side: HE IS GONE!

Bad Side: We have to get ANOTHER (And this is the 3rd one in 6 months) manager, and get used to their craziness. That transition period will take about 2-6 weeks of just hating life.

See, every manager has their own way of handling things and of working. Callie was laid back and fun for everyone, Suni was also laid back and he mostly let the assist. manager handle things, Paul was hands on EVERYTHING and when something pissed him off, he decided to micro-manage everything else instead of focusing on the bigger problem and dealing with that.

To say the least, Paul was a handful!

And I know this is mean, but... we all kinda rejoiced when he left...:D

Corporate still hasn't found a replacement. And that isn't very surprising because Corporate is the reason Paul left.

Corporate Offices are literally upstairs in the building so we are always under constant ridicule and surveillance by them. It sucks. Big time.

NEXT NEW THING:

TREK! Yep, I'm going and I really am excited for that. I'm really dying for some of my good friends to be in my family, but that might be asking too much.

NEXT:

School is out and this summer is gonna be amazing! I can just feel it!

Tanning, swimming, working, hanging out, and just having fun is all on the agenda:) I'm so stoked its not even funny!

YAY!:)

Last Minute Thoughts:

1. I LOVE the D.I. I just got my Trek skirt there and I actually love it and am wearing it right now:) He he:)

2. Having nothing to do is the greatest feeling in the world (2nd to peeing).

3. Even though having money is very helpful and it makes going places easier, there are ways around that! Such as: hanging out at a friends instead of going to dinner! YAY!

4. Kinda went on a date a couple Saturdays ago. But it didn't really work out, it was fun anyways though!

5. 'I'm not gonna write you a love song, cause you tell me its make or break in this!"

6. Its good being single. It makes life a whole lot easier.

7. I'm learning to love the people around me, and lately that my family. Just today Aidan and I went to lunch at Costa and it was a lot of fun! Not to mention he gets me free stuff just for being cute!:)

8. My mom is amazing. She is a trooper! Hannah and Sydney have not made it a summer to be looked forward to for her, but she is amazing and puts up with it. Sometimes with a smile on her face too!

9. This is a really long Last Minute Thoughts...

10. Went to St. George and that was a ton of fun! Took some great pics and just hung out with the fam. It was so relaxing!

Love you all!

Andie;)

~A Cornicopia Of Feelings~

Mainly feelings of disappointment and hurt. But what is life without some pain right?

So Today! Ah, the wonders of today!

Today my Jewelry friends and I got together for lunch! This was a big deal, because we all had jewelry first semester and we never really got back together to do something fun since then. So, like I said, big deal.

And it didn't hurt that the guy I had a huge crush on was supposed to come.

I had planned this thing for like 2 weeks in advance. It was an ordeal. I texted people, made sure they had rides, got everyone together, etc etc. So when I go to pick people up at the designated spot, Lizz turns around and tells me, Brock said that he wasn't coming. He says he has no money so he is just going home.

I turn livid.

Now, before you get all "Andie, a way to a mans heart is not to become his mother..." I want to tell you how incredibly douchbageriffic this stunt he pulled was:

COMPLETELY DOUCHBAGERIFFIC.

I already know that I shouldn't yell at people, and leave them nasty hurtful voicemail messages, or text them the alphabet one letter at a time... twice... in one day...

But guess what?

Andie don't put up wit no crap! MmmmHMMM!

(Sorry for the black person reference in speaking. I just couldn't help myself.)

But this is only the tip of the ice burg.

I went through the motions of what I did:

Anger (always the strongest most exhausting part),

Depression (my least favorite part),

Guilt and Shame (PA HA AH AH! I usually don't feel guilt and I do stupid things everyday so I am used to that feeling),

Denial (No close caption for this one),

Bargaining (Please! Please! I just want this one time to mean something!!!),

And finally ACCEPTANCE. I thought i was at that point. I guess not... I will be though. Soon.

And I kind of get this false happiness running through me by the time I am done with work at 10 PM. I get home and tell my parents and tell Seth of what an Awesome day I had in retrospect. Then Seth starts ragging on me for acting like Brock's (The guy I kinda went psycho crazy on) mom and dad completely disregarded everything I told him.

I get fed up.

I turn into done.

Stick me with a fork, I'm moist but dry on the inside.

I kinda have a break down. Just a small one compared to what I had gone through other times.

And then God shows me how much he truly cares.

When I am laying on my bed, bawling my eyes out, completely feeling alone and picked at and disregarded as crazy, My dad - my wonderful amazing father - softly knocks on my door and sits there with me. He knows what kind of pain I am going through, and the only thing he said that really had the most impact was "I'm sorry that it sucks. I wish I could say more, but all it does is suck."

The light at the end of the tunnel my friends. That was the light. My father is the light. The one in heaven and the one on Earth. Trust me, I know of my fathers imperfections quite well, but he is one of the strongest most generous amazing men I have ever known.

I love him.

And if I can just get a husband with half of what my own father is, that would blow my mind away. I probably wouldn't deserve him to be honest.

People, love the ones that love you back. If you cant turn the ones who you want to have as friends or something more, leave them be! They don't deserve the kindness you give, if they only look at it and throw it away. I am tired of the crappy people in the world that manipulate my love and appreciation into something that it never was.

But fortunately I have my family and my role models to help me.

Thank you.

Love,

Andie;)

Maybe I Need Some Rehab, Or Maybe Just Need Some Sleep!

What?!? Im not important enough to leave a comment for? Hu? Is that it!?

Well then I'll just shut this blog down!

Yeah I said it!

Prove to me that I shouldnt!

The End Of The Path

There are some paths in life where we are just supposed to get through the brush with as little scrathes as possible. Sometimes we get lucky and find a tool to help us get to our destination easily. And at other times, its all we can do to get up off the ground, brush off the dirt and keep on treking.

But in the end, we find where we are supposed to be. Even if its at the end of the line, there is nothing left to lose, and life doesnt seem to be worth living anymore. That brilliant light of inspiration comes and everything that has beaten you down, doesnt seem so big anymore.

These opprotunities for trials come around and we ask for mercy from God. But the mercy is that you are getting the trial. Somehow we need that trial, somehow its a quality of our person to have that under our belts for future use.

I have recently found out what 'hopeless' means to feel. I am a hopeless romantic, hopeless in quantum physics, hopeless in love (at the moment). But with that, there leaves an open space for hope to actually come and fill my life. Since it was absent, there was nothing to fill the space before hope, so it has a reserved place in me. There is hope, but it hasnt occupide its seat yet.

At the end of the term, there are lose ends to tie, grades to perfect, and tests to take. It opens up a great start for the new beginning of the next term. From what has happened, lessons have been learned and I will be better for the next round.

I will be better.

I need to be better.

I can be better.



Love,
Andie;)

.:New Years Resolutions:.

No. I'm not going to tell you what my resolutions are cause frankly I dont have any.
Im just trying to get past this year alive and with relatively good grades, but thats the same goal I'll have for the rest of my schooling career.

Oh and getting a car.

Thats a big one.

Another developement (very recent I might add) is that my mom is going back to school full time. She started Monday and shes working hard! Im proud of her that she would go and do the things she wants for once. Choosing to go back to school is a huge decision and Im glad she is choosing to better herself and get the education that she chooses.

Work is fine. Annoying and boring at times but new people are now being hired so we'll see how that works out. Either they'll have the stones to endure it, or they'll drop out of it happy as ever to be out of there.

I have a callus from chopping cilantro last night.... Im not happy about that.

I miss my boys....

During the WHOLE break (I'm not kidding, every day except Christmas Eve, Christmas and Sundays) I hung out with some of the greatest guys. I miss them... and my brother!

I spent almost all of my time with him this break and now I dont see him even half as much as I used to. I'm glad that we have the same friends cause it saves us fights on who'll use the car (if Seth ever gets his Licence let alone his permit!)


Well I gotta go, that was the bell!


Love,
Andie

Nothing Monumental. But Just The Same.

This year has been full of ups downs and sideways situations and happenings. Maybe I expected to much from this year and was disappointed with the outcome. Am I disappointed? I'll get back to you on that. Am I slightly annoyed and enlightened at the same time. Was it supposed to be a fantastic year? Yes. Was it? Yes! But in the way I wanted? That's the question.



So I put together a list of what i've learned and compile this past year.

1. Don't tempt God. He will prove you wrong and sorry at the same time.
2. You can be happy and miserable at the same time.
3. Right when you think it'll get worse it gets significantly better.
4. The weaknesses we pick for ourselves aren't the ones we actually live with.
5. The ends are just the beginnings.
6. There is a reason the past is called the past. Cause there Aint nothin you can do to change it.
7. There is a time and place for laughing, jokes and tomfoolery. Church is not one of them.
8. Music heals. It also rips apart.
9. Late night runs to wendy's and mcdonald's are some of the best!
10. You don't know the half of my crap that I have. That's one of Gods tender mercies to me.
11. Admitting you have the issues doesn't make them magically disappear!