.:Fanatic:.

The definition of the word 'fanatic' is as follows:



"A person with an extreme and uncritical enthusiasm or zeal, as in religion or politics."



"A person marked or motivated by an extreme, unreasoning enthusiasm, as for a cause."


"A person affected by excessive enthusiasm, particularly on religious subjects."



"Marked by excessive enthusiasm for and intense devotion to a cause or idea."



Or: (and this is my personal favorite)



"insane person," from L. fanaticus "mad, enthusiastic, inspired by a god," originally, "pertaining to a temple," from fanum "temple," related to festus "festive".



Now why would I decide to define this word? Because I really wanted to know if I was a fanatic for music - all types and kinds - and true to the word, I am!

I really cant stress enough about how much music is saving me and occationally rescuing me from the shallow waters of a high school. Shallow pools of people also.



Last night I had to finish the book '1984' by George Orwell.

I pray and hope to the heavens that I will never have to open that book ever again.

Being an activist of individual rights and small government, this book was a task that really took some strength to finish.

I could have just gotten on cliffnotes.com and read the summary and not have been as badly disturbed as I was.

The book is filled with betrayal, physical violence that is so grafic that I really was bawling through the whole book. It also included some sex, but that wasnt graffic, thank heavens!!!

There were a lot of things that made me bawl - and I am using that term right how it is supposed to be used, I was crying really hard - in this book. The betrayal was the biggest I would have to say. The main character was continually betrayed, not only by his suspected friend, but also by his love and by a person that he didnt even know at all, but really did like till he turned out to be a member of the Thought Police.

Then the invasion of rights was the second factor in my break down.

They brain washed him! They broke him down - his spirit - and filled him with awful things, with themselves.

Here is an excerpt that shocked me to my core:
'What are the stars? They are bits of fire a few kilometers away. We could reach them if we wanted to. Or we could blot them out. The earth is the center of the universe. The sun and the stars go round it.'

That was said by the torturour O'Brien.



I

HATE

THIS

BOOK



The last two factors to the bawling experiance was the physical violence that was inflicted, not only to the main character, but to everyone around them.

And last but not least, Fear.

Fear that this kind of society would actually happen and that I might see the beginning of it. I dont believe that it will get as bad as the book depics, but it could head in that direction.



I am one of those people who can feel pain of someone else if it is described or only mentioned. I felt the main characters pain.

I felt it to my core.



So the savior of this dark damp day was music. Frou Frou to be exact. They mellowed me down and got me to think. They cleaned me out and then set me to dry, just like washing laundry. I was pissed. I was irate, and at nothing really, but it was a big deal to me and I was so angry that I had to read it!

I feel bad for anyone who has to read it and I really strongly suggest that if you can get out of reading it, do that.


I love you all!


Last Minute Thoughts:
1. Punks are so annoying.
2. There is a special place in Hell for Theives.
3. I love spell check!
4. The spirit will always protect me when I need to be procected.
6. Abs are a really big turn on for me, especially if they are tight and nicely built;)
7. I love Facebook! I have reconnected to everyone from my elementary years!
8. The orange iPods are the best:).
9. Frou Frou and Sara Bareilles save me from myself.
10. The worst feeling is being scared for your life in your own house.

Love you all!!!

Slutty Little Girls

I have continually said that High School is a whole different world, but this world has so many different rules.
1. If you have 'em Flaunt them! - I really dont agree. Being really slutty is such a hold up! The wrong guys look and you really feel dirty and disgusting.
And the girls that do flaunt.... their stuff... its so annoying to look over and see them!!! I wanna go and pull their shirt up!
Of course, when I get my shirt pulled up, it annoys the hell outta me, but thats just because I dont like people touching me. Period.

2. Never insult a Senior.
I really dont have a problem with this though. People already think I am a senior so I dont get insulted and I cant really cross a line with the seniors anyway.

3. The cutest boys are the Juniors.
They really are. I know a couple cute seniors and then a handfull of sophomores. But mostly the Junior population holds the record for attractiveness... idk if thats a word but i really dont care!:)

4. You can spot the 'Emo's' From a mile away.
They annoy the crap outta me too! I really cant stand them. Just because they have low self esteem means that they can cover their face with the most unattractive eyeliner and tight TIGHT pants - including the boys.

5. If you do something well, never do it for free.
I actually learned this from The Dark Night... but I apply it to high school anyways! haha!

6. Dont mess with the Poly's!!!!
They are big and huge and will crush you!
They are truely scary unless your on their good side...

7. Be careful when you are walking down the stairs in high heels.
Even in flats you can trip and fall down - or up! - the stairs in front of everyone. This has happened to me so many times its not embarrassing anymore, just routine...

8. Make sure your phone is on silent or vibrate!
Some of the teachers are SCARY when they hear a phone go off!

9. Keep who you like to yourself!
It always makes things awkward - unless you have mastered the art of always being 'unakward' - if the guy/girl you like doesnt like you back and they know... Sigh...

10. The more popular you are, the less crazy you can be.
You are in the spot light of everyones view and if you screw up big time, you lose your chance. In reality, people only remember the really bad, and hardly remember the good.

11. The 'cute' girls always look cute, even if they dont.
That is annoying...

12. Tight skinny jeans are allowed on overweight people.
THEY SHOULDNT BE!

So there are the things that I have learned from the self conscious, over zealous, self esteem lowering halls of this little Bountiful High.

Oh and P.S.!
I added a sidebar on my blog that lists my fave people! Check it out!:)

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Last Minute Thoughts:
1. I love you!
2. I want some food...
3. Lunch is underrated.
4. Omgsh.... this guy is so hot and I am sitting like right across from him;)
5. Curly hair is more noticed than strait.
6. I wanna put pink and red in my hair... I feel the rebellious stage comin on! Watch out mom!
7. I really cant wait for my best friend to come back to Utah...
8. 'Theres nothing wrong with loving Chunky!' - Madagascar 2
9. Maroon is a good color on brunettes.
10. I can count my favorite people on two sets of hands:).


Love you all!!

Thoughts

So I found out today that I didnt get the part in the play that I wanted. I didnt even get a stage manager job. But to tell you the truth... I dont know whether I would have wanted it or not. I just kinda did it to expand to the things that I have done.
Now I know what its like to do a cold reading for an audition.
But I really wish I would have gotten the part anyways. It would have been nice to have been wanted.


P.S. MAREA YOU ROCK! I got my chi on Saturday and I love it! I straitened my hair and everything and it has never been so shiny or silky! I love you!!! We Will come up on Sunday to give you the money:)


Thanks for your prayers!!!
I love you all!!!

Last Minute Thoughts:
1. I really wish I had my iPod back...
2. It helps to know the people who you are auditioning for.
3. People choose their favorites.
4. I really am not mad about the auditions. I kinda knew that I wouldnt get it cause she didnt know me at all anyways.
5. I love sleeping!
6. I dont have any reason to like a guy right now and I dont.
7. People notice when your hair different from anything else you wear it as!
8. I love my phone.
9. I hate horny teenagers.... They annoy the Hell out of me!
10. Tight pants on guys is not not NOT attractive.... oh well...

Love you All!!!

~Jitter Bugs~

“I think animal testing is a terrible idea; they get all nervous and give the wrong answers” - Anonymous.

When life gets to the point where people continually ask you what your name is even though you have been talking to them and really spending time with them, it gets annoying.

I'M SICK OF BEING A NOBODY!

Yes in fact, its true. I am a nobody at that Bountiful High of mine. I am absolutely completely and totally annoyed that I have to tell everyone what my damn name is this far into the school year.

That is why I am trying out for Bountiful Highs production of The Foreigner!!! I want to be the hilariously funny and charming Betty the housekeeper.

But the one thing that I am concerned about is that I have no experience with auditioning for a part. I usually just ask for it and its given to me. But keep in mind that those parts were very small and usually behind the scenes.

If all fails and I don't get the part, I could always ask to be stage manager. People say that I would be good at it, but it really would be a lot of work for about no recognition. I have already tried to be a stage manager and there would really be somethings I would do over if I were to do it this time.

And if I have a prompting not to do anything if I don't get the part... oh well!!! My life goes back to being normal and I have an even greater prodding to go to Woods Cross next year!

Everything will be fine and everything will work out at the end. Preferably to my liking the first time, but that's not how life goes:).

Last Minute Thoughts:

1. My hands are cold!

2. My favorite color is a tie between Navy and Maroon!

3. Heaven help those poor souls that don't know who God is and how he loves them:(

4. I love texting!

5. I miss my daddy... Stupid Chinese....

6. One day, we're all gonna die. The end.

7. Life goes on! Love goes on! The world doesn't stop revolving and neither do our lives.

8. I want to believe that there is good in people, but sometimes my hope proves me wrong.

9. Pray for me to get the part or what ever Heavenly Father wants for me! It will help me immensely!

10. I hate having to wear my bra.... The under wires are so damn poky!

Tag

5 Things About Me That People Dont Know:

1. Math is one of my favorite subjects, but only if I get what Im doing!

2. I secretly like 'The Host' more than 'Twilight'

3. I love water!

4. I like to dance my frustration out when I am pissed! It makes me laugh!

5. I am a spoiled child. I really never get told 'no'.... My parents tell me that its a problem (Personally I dont see the problem:).

People I Tag:

Erica, MaRea Hess, Tara Thatcher, Mom and Pop, Lindsey & Riley Smith.

Enjoy!

~Adonis~

Okay, for those of you who don't know by now, I am in love with an English guy....

His Name? 

Henry Cavill.

And for those of you who don't think that this God isn't drop dead gorgeous...

(Cough Cough MOM Cough)

Well... Your loss:)

I just barely found these photos of the man and man! Sigh:)

These are brand new photos just released and I am so glad that I found them:)

Hope You Enjoy this heartthrob!

He was originally supposed to be Edward Cullen.

Stephanie Meyer thought that he looked the most like him. (I completely agree......:)

He should have been Edward....

Book!

I have another book for you! This one has been in my mind for a while now and once I started to get the names together, the characters themselves came and presented themselves to me. 

You always know you have a good idea when you know the characters personally!

Without further due:

Les Trois

I woke when a piercing scream hit the air. Panting and perspiring I looked around to see if I had woken anyone else. But Leila and Tayte slept like the dead.
I got off the bed and walked into the other room. I splashed my face with the cold stagnant water in the basin.

Those three little girls haunted me at night. Their screams in the fire, their faces. I couldn’t get them out of my head.

Long before I lived in Asea, I was a princess in the town Calumbrynn. Princess Zara, they called me. Now its just Z.
I was 13 when Faline took over my kingdom and killed my parents. Anson and Odelyna, the Royalty of Calumbrynn. It was a devastating blow to their kingdom. To the people of Calumbrynn, my sisters and I are dead, along with our parents, and have been for five years now.
I traveled back to the room where my sisters slept soundly and tried to wash the girls faces from my eyelids.
Instead of the faces of the girls this time, I remembered my previous lady in waiting. She was such a sweet and caring woman. I loved her like a mother. She was in my childhood more often than my real mother had been, and I had such good memories of her.
As I sank down into slumber, my memories transformed into my nightmares.
I don’t know why Galana is so anxious when she wakes me. It looks too early to be getting up.
“Grab all the clothes that you can, and make sure they are comfortable.” She whispers to me.
That’s weird… she never ever has us pack ourselves. Usually our servants do that for us. But I know for some reason that this is important, so I rip open my drawers and find the first thing I can that is comfortable.
I hear Leila in the other room asking where momma and papa were. I listened harder to hear Galanas response. None comes.
“Get your heaviest trousers and your fur coat.” She says after a minute.
I run and find my own coat.
I can hear Tayte because she starts to whine and whimper a little. She always does that when she is woken up from sleep. Galana shushes her and tells her the same things as she told us. By the time she comes back to my room, I have all of the things she asked me to get on my bed.
She arrives with three small leather packs.
“Put on your coat and your riding boots.” I do as she says.
Leila and Tayte walk into my room, both of their faces show shock and fear. Nothing like this had ever happened. The unknown frightens us.
Galana rushes out of my room and into Leila’s to pack her belongings. She does not pack neatly. Just stuffs them into the bag.
She does the same with Taytes. We follow her like sheep from one room to the next. With our bags packed, she puts each one on our backs and rushes us downstairs.
She never shows fear, just determination.
Down our halls, they are poorly lit; we stumble and fall once or twice. Each time Galana picks us up and keeps us to a fast pace. As I pass the library and my father’s den, I wondered if this is the last time I was going to see it.
We went through the kitchen quarters; I used to come through here when I was hiding from the math tutor. The back door leads down through the gardens and vineyards. I have only passed them on my horse when I was riding. Now I could smell the sweetness that they bestowed, I hope that I will be able to come back and smell them again once all this craziness was over.
We walk until we hit our town.
There Galana knocked on someone’s door. There is a hushed conversation and then she turned us onto a barn. She and another man push open the doors, and I was surprised how easily they opened. Hardly a squeak come from them.
Inside is a horse. It is a pretty horse, but not as pretty as my Warrior. Galana and the man attach the horse to a miniature carriage and usher us onto it. I settle down and fall asleep.

I opened my eyes again and it was daylight.
It was late enough to get up.
I had to get my mind off of those Nightmares. I strode out of the room went to go milk the cows.

À vous je fais des excuses.

Wow... only five hours since my last post... I think that is an all time record! 

Bad times had hit, and I'm sorry to have wallowed in them. 

I'm sorry to all those who I have offended. 

I'm sorry to all those who had to get involved.

I'm sorry that I actually fueled the fire sometimes instead of doing the right thing - the hardest thing - which was telling the others to shut up and deal with it.

Things got outta hand and there needs to be changes on both sides

So I apologize for being a freak about it. 

I don't necessarily take back everything I said because I meant all of it, but I do apologize about how I said it. 

Love ya all:)

Even the ones that I don't like, I still love you and I hope that you still love me too:)

"Will The REAL Slim Shady Please Stand Up!"

Sometimes there is only so much a person can take. 

Now actions definitely speak louder than words so what happens when actions are combined with words?

Disaster. 

Now I believe that you have the right to say anything anywhere at anytime, and your blog is your own portal to just whine and bitch and moan about anything you want - but consequences come as they may so be careful. )Please tell me if you have a problem with this next half of my blog:) I would love to here your feedback:).)

So here's mine:

PEOPLE NEED TO GET OVER THEMSELVES!

The world in fact doesn't revolve around just one person - Christ Excluded - and for the people who think that: NEWS FLASH! Even though you are in your world, think about everyone else for a change! 

When people leave, when they take themselves away from anything, they are exempt from anything that the other people who stayed do. (does that make sense? lol)

I know some of the most giving and accepting people in the world and then I know the exact opposites of those people as well.

 

I have said this - and will continue to say it - until people get it in their heads: I LOVE ALL PEOPLE, I JUST HATE THEIR STUPID DECISIONS.

Now for me to say that the decisions are stupid may be out of my rage of judgement, but I will continue to say what ever the hell I want till someone kills me.

 Guess what people! Wake up! See how your decisions are affecting the people around you! See how every breath you take can shatter someone elses world. 

I am so sick of saying things and then no one listens, and then I end up being right. 

Of Course I am always right, but what is the good when no one really hears it. 

My friends and I are so tightly knit, if we stretch its a big deal to another person. So when someone does something that is so appalling... especially if you love them, it is so hard to really get over it.

Last Minute Thoughts:

1. I love music:)

2. The right song can make your day or break it.

3. "If I could be someone like you, would you be strong enough for me?"

4. I don't think that you should ever have to delete your blog posts, if you really said something that you don't like, just go and edit them:)

5. Its getting warmer people!!! SPRING IS COMING!

6. I love Santa Claus.... I know, random hu!?

7. I love my father!

8. Stuttering just means that you are self conscious and that you have no self confidence.

9. Acne is rage built up and stored.

10. I love the brain! I cant wait to learn further about what it can do:)

Love,

Andie